Sunday, April 15, 2007

And then some

DH is NOT going to be on the bench after all. As always, we are being taken care of in ways we cannot even guess. He is already en route to his next assignment. He has been sent to just the assignment he was hoping for but had almost given up that hope.

There are times I am just delighted to be on this crazy adventure called life! I am totally and completely captivated by the wondrous things God can do.

I like to think that my mom is watching the events of our life and is excited and amazed by it all.

Tomorrow, I will join the homeschool group here in town for a field trip. I want it to go well. I've been skittish of the group for various reasons. However, it's time to get over myself and find out what they are all about. Every body has a story and I'll never learn it if I am too shy/prideful/worried or distracted to learn it.

Monday, April 09, 2007

family updates

Just wanted to switch gears and give a brief update on the crew.

We are all well, although DH is about to be on the bench again. This means he has no client after his current job. We are waiting to see what the next opportunity will be. The kids are fighting off colds, so there are a lot of chapped lips and noses here.
DD has started TAe Kwon Do. She has been taking classes for about 6weeks now. She is the smallest one in her class, but oh so feisty. I had to explain to her that she is not to use or threaten to use her skills on someone outside of practice unless she is in danger. Normal stuff for kids. They are so excited about their new found hobby that they want to try it out and see if it works.

The school has started a day class for grownups. I am beyond excited. The first day, I woke up hours early. The kids are adjusting to amusing themselves during the practice time. There are toys, videos and books at this very family friendly school.

Noah watches all of this and tries to run on the mat occasionally. He also mimics his sister when she is stretching or jumping. It's very cute!

I feel compelled to mention the dog. He is, as usual, terribly neglected. We do walk and feed him, most of the time with regularity. He still sleeps on the bed when there is room. But the days of toys and chewies are mostly gone. Poor doggy!

And our really big excitement is that we will go on a cruise in a few weeks. We have never been on a vacation of this magnitude before. We are SO excited. It has been booked for sometime. We'll be joined by several members of DH's family. Have I mentioned we are excited? My big hope is that the children like the kid's club so that we can leave them there several times over the week. I'm pretty sure I can hear the spa and hot tubs calling my name from here!

Enough click clack from me!
It's time to make lunch.

Happy Easter

Lent is officially over! Woohoo! So what did I learn from all this vegan exploration and self denial?

I can get grumpy when I have to give up some control and pleasure. I had to consciously make myself move on from the temptation to be crabby.

It was easier for my husband, but as time went on, he realized other things that might be an issue, as did I.

I learned to think about other things and not dwell on whether I might be fat or not. Even though I was not eating meat, dairy or eggs, I was the closest to not worrying about my food that I have been since childhood.

God wants to do bigger and better things in all of our lives, but we have to invite Him to do it.

I can let God help me with everything. Including what to do when the kids put shaving cream, cereal, sand or legos everywhere.

That forty days is both long and short depending on what you are up to.

Finally, that Easter is an amazing expression of product delivery. Jesus said no one and nothing would keep Him from bring us closer to the Father. Nothing could take His life unless He chose to give it. And it didn't. The same God who parted the sea, tamed lions and gave sight to the blind sent His spirit, His Son, a human form, named Jesus, to help us get through whatever wears us down. He is a God of grace. So no matter how hard I or anyone else tries to be good, no matter how many omelettes I skip, I still won't be able to rise above all of life's down and dirty fastballs without some major back up. That's where that grace comes in. Try as I might to get it all right, I won't. I'll get tired, grumpy, discouraged or angry. And when I do, God can cover the rest and make me more than enough for whatever situation I'm in. If I let Him.

Now that Lent is over, I'm hesitant to embrace the things that made me more mindful. I am thinking of a new way to keep focused.

If you've got something that really works in your life, I'd love to hear it. I can be reached at dlacker@hotmail.com

May the joy of Spring be yours!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

confession

I had a thought. Just one. They can be so fleeting :)

I've been wrong about confession. I heard all those hyms and saw the alter calls and thought Salvation was about us stumbling our way home. And although I still think that's part of it. I know there's more.

It's not all about us and our inadequacies.
It's about God. It's about us making the first move to know Him.
Here's how it goes.

God, this is who I am. I am impatient, headstrong and sometimes impulsive and cranky.
Who are you?
God then wraps me in His arms and shows me.
He is a creator, an inventor, a healer, a provider, a teacher, a counselor, and a friend.
The more I seek to know Him, the more He reveals. It's almost as if He's shy. But He's not. He knows I would run away of I saw and felt all of His power, intention and knowledge at once. So instead, he goes at my pace.
But first, I have to start the conversation. Sometimes, confession is a good place to start.