balancing acts

My plate is full and I think we are having cold feet. Of course, we are under contract and backing out now would be expensive and cause our DD serious stress. However, packing and moving is causing me some degree of stress.

Meanwhile, in my efforts to be joyous and productive instead of continuing my massive pity party, I am filling my days with consistant efforts to connect with others. I have finally figured out that life doesn't happen in a vacuum. Last week was busy in a very good way. There were playdates, school work, bible study, meals to make and easter eggs to hide. It was the first time since Tommy died that I felt like my world was spinning without it's melancholy wobble. I felt my mom's encouragement and companionship throughout the week. It was good.

Meanwhile, I work at finding the happy balance between staying in the moment and checking out and moving on. Too bad I never learned to juggle.