I often wonder what God has in mind for us here. I do not feel at home in this place. I try and remember that none of this is supposed to be my home. But, you know what I mean. It's nice to know your place in the world. Good to know you have foks you could call in a pinch. It's comforting to know you have people who have seen you with mismatched clothes and love you anyway. I have all that. Just not here.
It's hard to imagine I would have that here actually. There are so few moments when I really click with someone these days. I spend a disproportianate amount of time wondering what I should have said or done differently. It's like being in Jr High.
In spite of these feelings, this week has been better. I still haven't found my spot. But, I've gotten the message from numerous sources to have faith. And so I am. If nothing else, I'm learning over and over how little I know :) Always good to know who's in charge of things, and I know it's not me.
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Hey there. I'm reading this, and I wish I could be there to take a walk with you and our kids.
I'll be in Atlanta next week. I will be speaking at a prayer breakfast on Saturday. I'd love to see you there. Otherwise, and maybe in addition to, perhaps we can take that walk!
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