I don't know where we are going. Moving to Orlando seemed like the reasonable thing to do. It has made us very cranky though. All of us.
Russell and I now wonder what should we be doing. Neither of us expected moving to evoke such poor behavior and bad thoughts. The tantrums and pettiness is intense. I expect the dog will pee on the floor any minute. We are left to wonder," Is this normal? Is this all a sign that we should NOT be doing this? Is this a rise above the chaos and carry on moment?" We just don't know.
Part of the problem is that we feel we should be doing the "right thing." For whom though? Us? Family? Both are important. Complicated. I know many would say the us is the most important thing. But, we don't usually make decisions by that measuring stick. I wonder what other kinds Home Depot sells.
Russell asked me what my gut desire was last night. I said to hide under a rock. Not good. He would be happy if we moved to Atlanta. That certainly has its merits. Every choice does.
Maybe we'll just click our ruby, red heels and wait to see where home is. First, we'll need to get some. The clock is ticking. Tick Tick Tock
2 comments:
Stay in Bloomington!!! I didn't realize there was a ray of hope that you might not move away until I read this! I am tired, but here are a few good things about Bloomington:
It's a great town with good schools (and a large homeschooling population if you're interested in that).
There are fun things for children to do (swimming, parks and rec, children's museum, zoo, etc) close by and we are also conveniently located two hours from Chicago and St. Louis, in case you want some big city action.
The economy here is good/ low crime rate.
There are many opportunities offered in this area because we are home to a 4 year public university, 4 year private university, 2 year private college and a community college. This provides opportunities for college sports, children's educational opportunities, guest speakers at university, etc.
The universities, coupled with the fact that Bloomington is the national headquarters for State Farm Insurance provide a high level of employment for the area and a great educational opportunity for community residents.
Okay, I'm grasping at straws here. I know I've only known you a few months but I will really miss you if you go! Make the decision that is best for you.
Your Mon did have alot of wisdom, and her thoughts were that you have a one of a kind husband, and two of the greatest kids in the world. They are the most important thing. Your familys happyness is Essential if the family is to stay together. It is a hard world out there, and the traditional family is being eroded at every angle. Your parents and siblings have there own life to live. Be kind to yourself. You should see your husband every day,and he should see his kids every day. The rest of the world will be OK.
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